The other night your dad and I went out to one of our favorite restaurants in the city - Ruby's Cafe (we'll take you sometime). As we were waiting for our table, your dad noticed that I've been quieter these days, which is true. Lately, I'm lost in thoughts of you on the train, in the middle of a book, while making dinner. I think of what we'll teach you, mostly. The things you'll pick up from what we say, but more often from what we do. I've been chronicling these things in my heart and my mind (and in a book that you can ask me about), praying for you: the baby boy who kicks.
More than anything, one day I hope you grasp how deeply you are loved by the Creator of the universe. That you were known before you were even a spark in our consciousness. That you are fearfully and wonderfully made, stitched together to reflect goodness and grace. I hope you see that you are a piece of this puzzle, and your impact can be powerful, wherever you are.
Learn how to listen. There aren't many people in this world who will think the way you do. That's a good thing! I hope you try to understand where the joy and hurt and anger are coming from, but that it doesn't swallow you whole. Love justice and mercy, little one. They have power beyond what you can see.
Know that your dad and I love each other with a fierceness that will be hard to explain to you. One day, I hope you love someone in a way that shakes the foundation of your world. Read this when you're ready, and let's have a good long talk about it. Love is one of the greatest adventures you'll take.
Baby of mine, I'm going to fail you. Your dad, too, I'm afraid. We're going to make little mistakes and big ones. This journey of being human is a messy one, but there is great blessing along the way. Learn from the failures of others, but don't be afraid to fail, yourself. Character is built on how you respond to fear and failure.
We're rooting for you, always.
We can't wait to meet you, baby boy, and we love you beyond measure.
p.s. That's your dad in the photo, and I do hope you inherit those cheeks.